Yep, it's official. I am in one huge funk. You know when life hurls a bunch of sh** your way - well yeah, that's what's happening with me right now ...
My doctor thinks I have a pinched nerve. My neck and arm are still numb. My doc told me to call her on Tuesday if things had not improved and she would send me for a test called an EMG. Well things are more or less the same but I didn't call her. My friends Meg and Dale told me about the EMG. My life is shockingly distressing enough as it is and I just really ain't in the mood to have tiny needles stuck up and down my arm, neck and spine and then have electric currents go through them into me. Nope, I'm not in the mood for that. (Shannon, if you're reading this can you tell more about this test?)
I'm giving myself until next Monday before I call my doctor back. I have regained some feeling in the affected areas so maybe I just need a little more time ...
I got on the scale this morning and came about *this* close to jumping out of the window. I look and feel like a big ole tub of lard. To make matters worse, for the last two weeks, I thought I was being good in terms of eating less and trying to be a bit more active. All that for a lousy one pound loss! That's why I'm on my way to Fuddrucker's for lunch with Meg.
ttfen - that ta ta for effin' now!
peace out
td
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
A Mind is a Terrible Thing to Lose ...
I think I've either lost my mind or am in the process of losing it. I'll know for sure in about two hours. By then I should be back from my 12 noon doctor appointment.
It all started last Saturday. Six days ago ... Six long days ago at which time I never thought I would still be feeling this ...
I was coming back from taking Jared to pick up his glasses. Yes, like his mom, he needs glasses for the first time at the age of 12. Anyway, I was wearing that wireless Blue Tooth earpiece that goes with my cell phone. Was only wearing it because Dave had started complaining that it was a total waste of money because I never used it. Well, I noticed that it was pinching my ear in a way that was causing slight pain so I took it off. When I removed it, I noticed that my right ear/neck felt numb and immediately dismissed the numbness as something caused by the earpiece and would dissipate within a few minutes ... Six days later it hasn't dissipated and has spread to my upper chest and back area and down my arm to my hand. It's not severe or anything, in fact I have to touch the affected areas to see if they are still numb/tingly. They are.
My friends all laugh and lay out the proverbial welcome mat to officially usher me into middle-age hood. I have no problem with entering middle-age-dom, but could have done without the "gift." I had no idea how much this was bothering me until about 90 minutes ago when I realized that I am on my way to getting an official diagnosis. I've been on webmd.com. I've come up with "acceptable" diagnosis and those which I will not accept, including heart disease, stroke, and cancer. Am I tripping? Maybe, but I'm serious. Not that I would even get one of those dianosis today, but I'm just saying. I'm going over in my head how much life insurance I have. What would my kids do without me.
Dave called me and I broke down in tears in the midst of him talking about something - I have to idea what. Before he knew anything I was sobbing in the phone, trying not to be too loud since I am at work. He "guarantees" that I am fine. AFter we hung up, I had to work of some of this nervous energy so I took a walk. Got just far enough from my desk to be seen before I broke down again ...
I'm losing my mind ...
It all started last Saturday. Six days ago ... Six long days ago at which time I never thought I would still be feeling this ...
I was coming back from taking Jared to pick up his glasses. Yes, like his mom, he needs glasses for the first time at the age of 12. Anyway, I was wearing that wireless Blue Tooth earpiece that goes with my cell phone. Was only wearing it because Dave had started complaining that it was a total waste of money because I never used it. Well, I noticed that it was pinching my ear in a way that was causing slight pain so I took it off. When I removed it, I noticed that my right ear/neck felt numb and immediately dismissed the numbness as something caused by the earpiece and would dissipate within a few minutes ... Six days later it hasn't dissipated and has spread to my upper chest and back area and down my arm to my hand. It's not severe or anything, in fact I have to touch the affected areas to see if they are still numb/tingly. They are.
My friends all laugh and lay out the proverbial welcome mat to officially usher me into middle-age hood. I have no problem with entering middle-age-dom, but could have done without the "gift." I had no idea how much this was bothering me until about 90 minutes ago when I realized that I am on my way to getting an official diagnosis. I've been on webmd.com. I've come up with "acceptable" diagnosis and those which I will not accept, including heart disease, stroke, and cancer. Am I tripping? Maybe, but I'm serious. Not that I would even get one of those dianosis today, but I'm just saying. I'm going over in my head how much life insurance I have. What would my kids do without me.
Dave called me and I broke down in tears in the midst of him talking about something - I have to idea what. Before he knew anything I was sobbing in the phone, trying not to be too loud since I am at work. He "guarantees" that I am fine. AFter we hung up, I had to work of some of this nervous energy so I took a walk. Got just far enough from my desk to be seen before I broke down again ...
I'm losing my mind ...
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