I think I've either lost my mind or am in the process of losing it. I'll know for sure in about two hours. By then I should be back from my 12 noon doctor appointment.
It all started last Saturday. Six days ago ... Six long days ago at which time I never thought I would still be feeling this ...
I was coming back from taking Jared to pick up his glasses. Yes, like his mom, he needs glasses for the first time at the age of 12. Anyway, I was wearing that wireless Blue Tooth earpiece that goes with my cell phone. Was only wearing it because Dave had started complaining that it was a total waste of money because I never used it. Well, I noticed that it was pinching my ear in a way that was causing slight pain so I took it off. When I removed it, I noticed that my right ear/neck felt numb and immediately dismissed the numbness as something caused by the earpiece and would dissipate within a few minutes ... Six days later it hasn't dissipated and has spread to my upper chest and back area and down my arm to my hand. It's not severe or anything, in fact I have to touch the affected areas to see if they are still numb/tingly. They are.
My friends all laugh and lay out the proverbial welcome mat to officially usher me into middle-age hood. I have no problem with entering middle-age-dom, but could have done without the "gift." I had no idea how much this was bothering me until about 90 minutes ago when I realized that I am on my way to getting an official diagnosis. I've been on webmd.com. I've come up with "acceptable" diagnosis and those which I will not accept, including heart disease, stroke, and cancer. Am I tripping? Maybe, but I'm serious. Not that I would even get one of those dianosis today, but I'm just saying. I'm going over in my head how much life insurance I have. What would my kids do without me.
Dave called me and I broke down in tears in the midst of him talking about something - I have to idea what. Before he knew anything I was sobbing in the phone, trying not to be too loud since I am at work. He "guarantees" that I am fine. AFter we hung up, I had to work of some of this nervous energy so I took a walk. Got just far enough from my desk to be seen before I broke down again ...
I'm losing my mind ...
8 comments:
If you're out of your mind, your writing is still pretty good... When you know where the weird feeling comes from, you'll feel better. Please keep us readers posted as to what this is about. My guess is it's a case of mind-affecting-matter, since health is made of what we think as much as of anything else.
{{{boodle hugs}}}
Carrie
Personally, my mind just gets in the way. I am fine when it gets lost, just accept it and be happy
thinking of you and hoping it goes well.
I hope the diagnosis was one of the acceptable ones, let us know how you're doing!
Tracy, I hope no news is good news, let us know that everything is fine.......
Have you heard anything yet?
Carrie
oh no! sorry to hear that! hope everything turned out okay!
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